“Lying there, that’s the scariest thing in the world, you know it’s so real, you know you’re screwed. You know you’re out and you’re super injured. I just didn’t let my mind go too dark, I just wanted to think about ‘Okay it could be worse, like I could have my bone sticking out of leg right now.’ And honestly that’s narly but I did think of that. I was like ‘okay it could be worse, it could be worse’, and just tried to stay calm but I was pretty much blacking out, screaming.
The first 2 weeks after the injury were definitely the darkest of my life. Especially just getting back to Canada from Alaska was a mission because my knee was locked. I was basically handicapped. Luckily, my injury was so severe, I got shot to the top of the list for surgery. I had just a few days, I had 4-5 days then I went right into surgery. I blacked out after that for 2 weeks, I spent 4-5 nights in the hospital and I don’t remember. Coming out of it, I would be in an exceptionally amount of pain more so than the average kind of ligament tears because I had to go straight into surgery, blood cots, like a lot of damage. I was not prepared for that.
I definitely have my days, that’s been the biggest struggle for me, the mental side. The physical side yeah it’s been painful and super hard to get past that. The mental side is really a true true struggle and trying to stay in that positive mindframe and not let yourself go into those deep dark places, it’s hard. There’s lots of ups and downs with it I’m not going to lie.” – Tatum Monod, Canadian Pro Freeskier. (4/4)
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