“So when it happened, I self harmed with the intent on pretty much ending my life. I ended up passing out more from the adrenaline probably because my heart was just pounding which I was terrified. It’s terrifying. It was a decision where you’re like ‘holy shit’, what am I doing? I was in my downstairs bathroom. My friend, I just texted her, ‘thanks for everything, I’ll talk to you later.’ She was kind of fishy with that text and was wondering what’s going on? I wasn’t replying obviously. She drove over, and was like, ‘where’s Michelle?’ 1 thing led to another they found me. 1 thing that will play to my head in this day is my mom shaking me, ‘how could you do this to me’ and just kept repeating that over and over. I was looking up at her and it was a realizing moment where you don’t realize the impact you have on so many people which is why I want to talk about it and bring it up for so many people, and write my blog and do that. Because, you don’t understand the impact you have until you are put in the position where you are getting yelled at, ‘how can you do this to me?’ My sister screaming and stuff. That burned a hole in my brain. That was the moment where I was like I don’t want to do this, no matter how depressed I was. It was a realization, like thank god it didn’t past where it did and that I’m here today. Even in the hospital, 1 of my doctors said ‘everything happens for a reason, everything passes, this will pass, I think you need to realize that.’ My psychologist, she said ‘I think you’ve gone through a lot of change, out of high school’, I had a really bad depression and anxiety in high school too. From when I ended gymnastics was when it kind of started. It slowly built up from grade 10 to the year after graduation where it was worst. Even just the doctor sitting me down, having a conversation, not looking at me like I was absolutely crazy, kind of understanding, like hey, ‘everything passes, everything kind of happens.’ That doctor affected me for the rest of my life, I am always going to think about that.” – Michelle Huntley, Mental Health Advocate and Former Gymnast. (6/8)