“That day, I had a friend texting me. So before, I had a best friend, she was an amazing person, I just kind of secluded myself with her. She was my only friend at that time really. I was just very dark, it was a lot of dark days. I can’t even say there was a specific reason, more less the chemical imbalance and series of events led up to it. That day, one of my old guy friends was texting me and he was just saying, ‘oh you’ve changed, you’re not the same person.’ Just because I secluded myself and I lost a lot of my friends and they were upset about that. He obviously didn’t know that but that was kind of the straw that broke the camel’s back. Just looking at it, I don’t even like who I am anymore, just full on went into these negative negatives thoughts like ‘no one’s going to care, no one’s going to notice, I was gone.’ It was kind of a decision, I thought about it lots, and I did write a note, so it was kind of planned, kind of not. Where when it happened it was just like, ‘okay I’m done, I need to put this sadness to an end, put this misery to an end.’ A lot of people would say it can be a selfish choice, 100% I think that but you have to think about the person and what they are going through to get to that point. It has to be extremely dark for them, it has to be extremely upsetting. A lot of people were like, ‘what a selfish thing to do,’ a lot of family was saying that after. Well yes, but take yourself out of that mindset and think about how heartbreaking it is for someone to be there.” – Michelle Huntley, Mental Health Advocate and Former Gymnast. (5/8)
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